Fell apart...

Not talk about any buildings...
It's about myself...

Since last year I'm struggling between choices...
My close friends should know what I'm talking about...
Today,
I fall apart after all these time...
I teared...

Talked with dad on the phone...
About quitting form 6 and life after that...
My dad let mii quit...
But still, he wont let mii choose where I wanna be...

I dont know why...
I just feel suffocated...
I feel like dying...
And I wanna do so for the very first time!!
I wanted myself dead for the first time!!

I hate crying!!
But this time I cant control my tears....

I dont want my dear to hear mii like this,
so I didn't phone him at first....
Instead, I called on my BFF...
I cried my heart out over the phone...
Jill was surprise because she never seen this side of mii for many time...
Anyway,
Thanks Jill for being there for mii...=)
After the crying,
although I cant do anything more
but I feel much better already.... =)

I'm still strong!! =D